Thursday, November 16, 2006
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Wahahahahhaha its finally over! Its the Os! They're over!
I mean I have so much to say and shout out at the top of my lungs! Four years! Studying for this moment in time where you regurgitate it all out! Four years of preparation just for this moment in time which Definitely can only be called once in your lifetime.
Tears, joy, anger? This entire mixture of emotions i have felt countless times these past four years. Sigh.
Will I be able to cope? What has past will never return. The feelings, the emotions, will forever be buried in my heart. Forever remembered, forever cherished. The times of joy, short, brief, but definitely remembered. The times of suffering, grumbling and discontentment will also be with me. Remembering the times, sticking with those few who have always been with me through thick and thin. The people whom I can turn to and just outpour my entire heartfelt feelings. Forever remembered, forever cherished.
I just want to shout it all out at the top of my lungs!
"I want to see your face, I want you everyday, I need you by my side, I want you in my life, no more I can't deny." Ah the lyrics of the song, so simple, yet so applicable to me now, especially now, what I have been constantly taking for granted has somehow just slipped past me...... Makes me want to have it all over again and this time definitely wanting to cherish it all the more.
Much has been done over these past few weeks, studying, talking and trying to understand others a whole lot better. The times spent traveling from home to JE and back with my backpack stacked with books and my dear lappy...... sigh....those bitter sweet moments when I had to slog my life away with my entire head in books......Not something which I'm bound to forget that easily.......Sigh the time spent with Ken staking out prime land..., studying and at the same time "keeping sane".
There was so much I intended and longed to do after it all ended..... Somehow, nothing seems to be coming to me now.... The only thoughts which has been springing to mind is gaming, improving my Japanese and next comes anime then roller blading! WHEET AIR GEAR! But amongst all, what I have really decided is to set aside a whole lot more time for the Lord God Almighty. Reading, applying and spreading his word to others. Strengthening my relationship with those around me is also something I aspire to achieve.
Went out with Ching En and his friend just now to Funan and listened to what his friend was explaining about tech and stuff and realized how out of the field I was. It totally took me sometime to comprehend what he was saying. But dude! He was good! he was literally reading the items off with their code names! At a really fast pace to boot! Saw a whole lot of cameras and hard disks and boy did my nose start bleeding! WHEET HDDs! Its my dream I tell you! Dropped by Gamescore to take a look at the new games. And lo and behold, guess what i saw? I saw the PLAYSTATION 3 in its RAW GLORY! I went straight into TOTAL fanboy mode and was commenting about how sleek the body looked, how cool the controller was and how 11+3R4117 53X4Y the graphics were!
After all that walking around, finally went to have our dinner at Sakae Sushi and drowned out post-O blues in the sushi buffet. Muched and crunched on numberous plates of sushi....mmmmm.......! Then listened carefully and heard that Ayumi's Heaven was playing on the sound system there. It suddenly struck me on how impactful the song's words were. Although I didnt understand entirely what she was saying, I could totally feel the emotion in them. Somehow, listening to it made me feel like crying.
Ah what a day it has been..... listening to Younha's - 思い出にできない. Another really touching song. sigh. Another year has somewhat come to an end. Feeling tired and waiting for supa supa to load...... It really is taking its time.
Well, before I sleep I really want to shout this out to all the tuition teachers, Ling lao shi, Mrs Kao and Song who have been coaching, teaching and encouraging me all this past four years "THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!"
Words cannot express the gratitude I feel.
Heng Minblogged at 6:43 AM