Sunday, January 10, 2010 - :
ARGH! I have failed yet again! What I promised myself has just crumbled yet again. Friends? Somehow, my heart tells me no. In every way I look at it, despite how the odds are SO MUCH AGAINST me, I still feel that shes the right one. I can't believe that i faltered over such a short period of time.... It really hurts, knowing of the time constraint, knowing that there would probably be less than two more occasions to meet her. More of the regret that I wasted the pass two months, not doing ANYTHING to try to mend the relationship. More of just ego on my part that I would not lose to her. Thinking that what she did was on purpose and that I needed to find a way to get back at her. But that probably was not the case. Shockingly, she remembered something which I actually forgot. Now, I feel that the only thing I can do to hopefully redeem myself is to make this next event the best as I can. Much thought, plenty of planning and probably something more sincere would help me get the message over properly this time. But above all things, I really have to thank God for giving me this window of opportunity to realize that I was wrong. Better late than never. Thank you Lord for helping me realize that time is of the essence and that I really need to do something sincere to reach her. Lord, please help me bring the message over and allow the reply to be one which is positive. But above all things, Lord, please allow what may result from my choice of action to be what is pleasing unto you. Lord, please help my be more certain of what I want, and make the choice of action be one which is correct and pleasing unto you.
Heng Minblogged at 5:58 AM
Thursday, January 07, 2010 - :
Oh my goodness, its been 3 years since my last post. Many reasons, some of which I feel are justifiable and some maybe not so has resulted in this hiatus for 3 years. Over the course of 3 years I have realized many aspects of my life which I feel are lacking. I attribute these wandering thoughts to having a great deal of time to ponder over these when I am alone on duty. I do realize that these aspects of my life are rather unsettling and definitely require severe attention to and changes must be made as quickly as possible. The rapid transition from college to the army has made me realize that I have failed to act in many ways and some of these actions which I have failed to do have resulted in faults in my life. Most of which resulting in a great amount of grief and anguish in my heart. Regret would be one of the best words to portray my immediate sentiments to my actions. The element which makes it worst is the fact that I can find no reason for not doing what I should have done. Even doing something as simple as speaking my mind, I presumed that actions alone were sufficient. I also failed to realize the signs which were so blatantly placed before me. I question my filtered judgment now when the entire ordeal has simmered down and realize that I was nothing but a fool. The signs were very clear but I failed to heed the conscience which was ringing persistently by me. I clung on feebly to what I assumed was true but reality was never been awfully pleasant to me. Change is indeed what I need to push on and change has what I have been working on over the past year. Fail as I may time and again, I now know what I truly desire and will persevere towards that goal. Success would be sweet but I know it will be scattered with many obstacles. Reliance on God as well as a calm mind would allow me to attain just what I want.
The following photos will be a blur of what my life has been as of 2007 since I graduated from NTSS and proceeded on to college. Although this college was never one I desired to go to, God has definitely blessed me in countless ways and I have failed to reciprocate that unconditional love which He has so willingly showered on me. This I intend to change this year and is one of my few new year resolutions. And now, what you have so patiently been waiting for since my rambling from the start, Let the Collage begin!
Our Passes for SOY 2008 which we proudly brandish, allowing us photo-taking during the performances, as well as first row seats =)
Ken and some pre-performance posing
Me and one of the better cosplays that day, from FFIV
Johan and a girl from POT
The girl on the right really made our day, posing so happily for us!
Take note of the girl in the middle, she frequents most of the cosplay events.
A rather cute version of Kon
Ting and a Vampire Knight cosplayer.The following are photos from CNY 2008 at Chen Yi's place.
Ken, after a night of gaming.
Chen Ting and her usually bubbly self.
Chen Yi, three months after enlisting.The following are photos of my current racket, the K-six-one-95
What I would do to attain a car like that in the future.
Only one word would properly define this car, SEXY!After the last A Division Tennis match at Temasek Junior College which we lost 4 - 1. All the training for one and a half years ended there with a rather heavy heart. But those times will always be in my heart. Teammates for 2 years whom I truly treasure. After the match, Du Chen, Shawn Ching, Greg and I headed on to Changi Airport Terminal 3 for dinner.
The two whom I foresaw to be the future captains of the Tennis team.
The number 9 has always been a special number during my tennis days. The number for completion, Game, Set, Match.
Greg, Shawn and Du Chen.And onwards to my first ever Live Concert, Maroon 5 live in Singapore.
Heng Minblogged at 5:52 AM